November 30, 2005
It's not my attitude you can't handle; it's my look. The ending was less positive than I had expected. For all that has been preached, it's how it's been ended that serves as yet another piece of evidence of inconsistency and NATO-ness. Shouldn't any self-respecting and intelligent management know better than to allow people to leave in such a cold and unfeeling manner? Would that be a smart thing to do for the morale of the people who are staying behind?
Is it because I get a (miserable, if you think about it) remuneration? That justifies that the moment I have decided to leave is the moment all my past contribution will be diminished to nothing and that all the 'investment' in me have gone down the drain? Is it because for all those training sessions that I sat through, no matter with a tired brain and body or not, someone somewhere has paid much money for it? And my remuneration makes my working to the best of my capability and all the extra time I put in, after work hours, an obligation on my part? In fact, have I unwittingly exchanged all my time, and all my capacity for absolute devotion to my work for those monthly credits into my account and all those necessary and redundant training sessions? And because I stopped wanting to continue, there is nothing left, not even for a cordial and polite goodbye?
If moving on is believed to be my mistake, I think the mistake is committed just at the right time. One year more will definitely be one year too long and too late.
It's an irony that the 'family' has such low regard for relationships. It's an irony that cynical attitude is the main brew of what you are doing and yet, you advise someone against her most classical, cynical look. Maybe you are just deemed out of control and insecure when it comes to what a mother gives to her child at birth.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 10:36